“Don’t fret or worry. Instead of worrying, pray. Let petitions and praises shape your worries into prayers, letting God know your concerns. Before you know it, a sense of God’s wholeness, everything coming together for good, will come and settle you down. It’s wonderful what happens when Christ displaces worry at the center of your life. Summing it all up, friends, I’d say you’ll do best by filling your minds and meditating on things true, noble, reputable, authentic, compelling, gracious-the best, not the worst; the beautiful, not the ugly; things to praise, not things to curse… Philippians 4:6-8 MSG
Yes. I remember the words. I meditate. Words I received through an email from my eldest daughter. She saw me cry. I don’t usually cry. She saw me and knew. So, she sent me these words. The Word that was also penned for her. The Word she has allowed to be hidden in her heart. She chose on her own to find comfort in these words and then she shared them with her mama. I pause a moment. I am grateful for her devotion. She loves God. It gives me confidence to keep fighting for the hearts of my children.
But, in this moment, I am afraid of what I do not see and what I do not know. I prayerfully considered the choice before I made it, and now in this place I am uncertain I chose correct. I come to Him, distressed. I plead for comfort that I know He can bring. I let petitions and praises shape my worries into prayers. In my own desperate words I confess my fear, as it would be in vain to hide. I have no image to protect. I cry out to be conformed into His. “Here is all of me, Lord.” In the midst of my storm of emotion and troublesome uncertainty, His Word is Truth and anchors my soul.
“The eyes of the Lord are toward the righteous, His ears are open to their cry… When the righteous cry for help, the Lord hears, and delivers them out of all their distress and troubles.” Psalm 34:15,17
“What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who is against us? He who did not withhold or spare even His own Son but gave Him up for us all, will He not also with Him freely and graciously give us all other things?” Rom 8:31-32
Coming and bringing it all to Him is half my battle. I came and fell at His feet, despairing, soul weak and body weary. I rise with strength and faith renewed, different from when I came. I settle down with a sense of God’s wholeness, everything coming together for good.
I do not know what the next step will bring. In His presence, somehow it is okay. It is that peace He promises. The peace that displaces worry. The One that surpasses my understanding.
I TRUST. I can say it truthfully, otherwise I could not utter the words,“I trust YOU.”
I TRUST the One who holds my future, when I do not know what my future holds.
I TRUST the One, without sin, Who vindicated me through the sacrifice of His Own life, all to secure my place with Him forever.
I TRUST the One Who has showed me His covenant in writing, signed with His blood poured out for me on Calvary.
I TRUST the One Who has never abandoned me and never will.
I TRUST the One Who will never give up on me, even though I am not nearly as mature as I should be by now, because He said the work He began in me, He is faithful and just to complete.
I TRUST the One Who has never neglected to show me the way, even if it is only moment by moment, as the light of His Word shines on my path for each step I take.
It is enough. HE is more than enough.
I continue on my journey, once again.
“Whatever I have, wherever I am, I can make it through anything in the One who makes me who I am.” Philippians 4:13 MSG