ACHE {5 Minute Friday}

The dark creeped in hours ago, and my neck and shoulders have carried a weight of the day that causes me to ache much older than I am. The continuous dull pain has been my reminder. It’s stabbing and stinging, but it could be so much worse. Hunched over my sink for the fifth time today, washing and drying, this body screaming for rest, I hold back the urge to complain. Although, a slight slip of the tongue divulges what’s in this heart, and He hears, even if no other.

 

Today, I bypassed crumb ridden floors, mountains of dirty clothes, school books strewn in order to take care of my mama, with youngest in tow. She couldn’t walk today with the pain in her back excruciating. So I made sure she got her morning coffee and pancakes and a hot meal for lunch. Her clothes need folding and bed linens straightened. Her dog needed walking and dishes needed washing.

My mama’s ache-ridden body, which clothes a soul permeating loves fragrance, fails her today. She needed me. I have only recently come to see her as a priceless gift. I missed it before, selfishly blind. Today, as my fingers lingered with the soft fabric of her shirt between them, I lament and my heart aches for my past disdain. Yet, because of her love unconditional, she forgives and gives and she forgets and I get.

 

I stood before her sink washing her dishes, knowing my neglected pile had hers beat. Grateful, I ponder the countless times she graciously washed my own. I intently listen to her pills as she sorts, and I ache on the inside. I ache for her aches. Although, I do not know how many years left I have with her, I know that I won’t let any more days pass by without showing honor and counting the gift she is to me–to us. And today, my honor and my gift was to be hers.


{I went over 5 minutes a bit on this one… to honor my mama, I wanted to get it right}

  • http://sixinthehickorysticks.blogspot.com Nacole

    sorry for leaving a comment on an old thread–but just wanted you to know–i saw this sweet comment, and i love you, too, new–feels-like-old-friend! <3 and the comment you were worried did not reach me on my blog–the really long one you had to submit twice–i got it–and it wasn't repeated. thank you for that novel;) really, i enjoyed it! love you! thanking God for you today.

    • http://www.alifesurrendered.com Michele-Lyn

      Nacole,

      No worries on an old thread… it wasn’t that old 🙂 You are too precious… praying for you today…

      With love…

      Michele

  • http://myfreshlybrewedlife.com/ Barbie

    Your words here are so beautiful. You are a reflection of the redeeming and powerful love of God. It is He who gives you the strength to serve through the aches. You are blessed to have such a relationship with your mom.

    • http://www.alifesurrendered.com Michele-Lyn

      Barbie,

      Thank you.. and yes, only by His redeeming power and healing love can I even write and share as a witness of His grace…

      Blessings to you..

  • http://www.deepintolove.com/ Craig

    you got it right – you got it VERY right. I lost my mama years ago – when we hurt – she hurt– there’s something about the love of a mom – and you know this being one – I know a hint of it because when my mom died I kind of became parent to my sister – and when she hurts – I feel it. Your mom is lucky to have a baby like you – and your babies are lucky to have a mom like you. God bless and keep you and each and every one of yours Michele-Lyn.

    • http://www.alifesurrendered.com Michele-Lyn

      Craig,

      I do not want to wait until she is gone to realize the gift that I have.. thank you for your encouragement and for stopping over here at my place…

      Blessings to you…

  • http://www.alyssasantos.com Alyssa Santos

    This writing takes me there, in your moment of gratitude and struggle and the reality of grace in the everyday. I love that you cared for your mom. — mine is so far away that I cannot serve her physically, and I wish I could. Bless you, Alyssa

    • http://www.alifesurrendered.com Michele-Lyn

      Alyssa,

      Thank you for your words… they are a gift of grace to me… my default is to complain and my nature to see the negative… only by grace have I been able to cultivate a heart that is grateful…

      and I ache with you… that your mama is not close… I pray God will give you more opportunities to redeem the time and distance…

      Blessings to you…

  • http://sylvrpen.com Sylvia R

    This is so beautiful, moving.
    “she forgives and gives and she forgets and I get.” I love that. And.. “today, my honor and my gift was to be hers.”
    Glad you wrote this lovely post, and that I got to read it. God bless!

    • http://www.alifesurrendered.com Michele-Lyn

      Sylvia,

      Ah.. those words still convict my soul… I am full of thanks for His grace… thank you for leaving your thoughts here… they are rich with encouragement.

      Blessings to you…

  • http://sixinthehickorysticks.blogspot.com Nacole

    Michele,

    this is simply beautiful. makes me stop and think. my mother and i don’t have a great relationship. she keeps the ties cut. but i have come to a place of loving acceptance, though i still deal with anger at times. i want to honor her and love her regardless. and i can still come to her with worries about my babies. she is still there for me when i need her.

    you have me thinking…this was poignant and refreshing.

    blessings to you!

    • http://www.alifesurrendered.com Michele-Lyn

      Nacole,

      Thank you… you always are such a blessing when you leave your beautiful comments… I just love your heart overflowing with love and passion for your God and family and friends… I know well, the relationship between mother and daughter can be a challenging one… and my relationship with my own, was godless for so long. It is by His grace and love that He brings restoration and redeems the time… I will be praying for you and yours.

      I will be emailing you soon.. I have a stack of books for you 🙂

      Love you, my friend.

  • Norma

    Your words are so encouraging…a reminder that my quest for perfection is so unrealistic and never what He intended. Your words are a loud reminder to me to stop the insanity within and just LIVE. You paint such beutiful pictures with your words and remind me so sweetly of how your mama opened her home and heart to me at a time when I so needed it.

    Thanks!

    • http://www.alifesurrendered.com Michele-Lyn

      Norma,

      My dear friend… it has been so long. Thank you for sharing your thoughts here. They bless me so much. I remember the time you spent at my mama’s house. She loved having you there and you blessed her by it. I hope you and your precious ones are doing well. I love that you take the time out of your busy day to visit my place and leave your encouraging words.

      Only by His grace, my friend,
      with love and blessings to you…

      Michele

  • http://www.audrasilva.com Audra Marie

    Amen.

  • http://www.youaremygirls.com Jennifer @ You Are My Girls

    Michele-Lyn, I am so blessed by your words here, your heart. I have tears in my eyes as I type this, so moved, so grateful for how the love you have shared here, the humble sacrifice, the going in, willing to do the hard work, in His name. Thank you so much. I hope we get to meet at Allume Social. What a blessing you are.

    • http://www.alifesurrendered.com Michele-Lyn

      Jennifer,

      Your heart that is felt in these comments you left has blessed me and humbled me at the same time. There is so much more selfishness that my heart needs to be well rid of, and I am grateful that He will never give up working on it as long as I walk this earth. As I walk out my days, I am always mindful of the character my children will inherit from me, and I want to be a true example of Christ, and somehow despite all of my failures and mistakes I pray they see Him.

      Thank you again… and blessings to you.

  • http://www.malisaprice.com Malisa

    What a joy to have read your post, Michele-Lyn. It’s so wonderful to hear the journey you have walked in and are walking through. I love the redemption you are experiencing.

    • http://www.alifesurrendered.com Michele-Lyn

      Malisa,

      Thank you… your comments bring ME joy… and this Holy Romance… Yes, it is a beautiful story of redemption that I know so many others share…

      Blessings to you…

  • http://www.audrasilva.com Audra Marie

    “I have only recently come to see her as a priceless gift. I missed it before, selfishly blind. Today, as my fingers lingered with the soft fabric of her shirt between them, I lament and my heart aches for my past disdain. Yet, because of her love unconditional, she forgives and gives and she forgets and I get.”

    This is where I am at with my own mama. I have missed so much through my own trite misperceptions. She’s coming for a visit this summer, and I have determined in my heart to understand, know, honor, and cherish her. Thank you for this post that speaks to where my own heart is right now.

    • http://www.alifesurrendered.com Michele-Lyn

      Audra Marie,

      Ah… it is a deep aching that I look back, but I cannot linger long in the past because before me are new mercies… I pray right now and believe together with you, for God to redeem the time, and may our moments with our mamas be precious, full of love and joy and healing as we obey the command, heartfelt and sincere… to honor our parent(s).

      With love,

      Michele

  • http://www.pruningprincesses.blogspot.com Laura

    Rarely do we see the gift of our moms in time. Thank you for serving her. For aching with her. Sometimes, teaching in the inner city, I just want these kids to ache for something other than themselves.

    • http://www.alifesurrendered.com Michele-Lyn

      Laura,

      A sad reality… that often we I do not appreciate the ones who love me most unconditionally… but I will not wait until the gifts are gone to know their worth and value to me… only by His grace. I hope to visit at your place today… maybe when the house sleeps… I am nursing mama again today.

      Blessings to you… and thank you so much for stopping by.

  • http://tuningmyhearttopraise.blogspot.com/ r.elliott

    This is just beautiful…I know this journey…I am going to finish strong with my parents…I so want to live with them in an honoring…loving way…that they will know they are treasured…and this is the miracle working power of God…treasured…is what I longed for most of my life…His Grace is sufficent.

    Blessings to you we both serve and love our parents with the same Love that He loves us with…thanks for this…

    • http://www.alifesurrendered.com Michele-Lyn

      Ro Elliot,

      Thank you… I am not sure why it took so long for me to really grow up and appreciate the gift of grace that has been by my side all along… but my eyes are open now. Thank you for your words of wisdom and love… blessing to you friend…

      With love,

      Michele

  • http://www.pohlkottepress.blogspot.com Tara // pohlkotte press

    oh, friend. these words…the honor your mother beautifully. they honor us all by reading them. thank you.

    • http://www.alifesurrendered.com Michele-Lyn

      Tara,

      Thank you… your comments always like honey to my soul… blessings to you. I hope to find time to visit your place, but I am still nursing mama.

      With love,

      Michele

  • http://amotherlostblog.blogspot.com/ Stephanie

    You are a beautiful soul! “She forgives and I gives, she forgets and I gets.” That was wonderful to read. I’m going to let that one soak in . . . everyday.

    • http://www.alifesurrendered.com Michele-Lyn

      Stephanie,

      Thank you, thank you… this one was a bit tough to write as it continues to pull on some heart strings… but my heart is full with all the love God has poured in my heart, through the people He has given to me in my life, that my eyes are now open to see.

      Blessings to you…

  • http://growwhereyoureplanted.com Paula Ebert

    Your writing is so beautiful (as is your blog). What a blessing to see the gifts we have been given… even in the tough times in our lives. Thankful for your heart! God bless you!!

    • http://www.alifesurrendered.com Michele-Lyn

      Paula,

      While I am still up, much too late, I wanted to take a moment, because I may not get another until late tomorrow, to say thank you for your kind thoughts and words and for stoping by… and yes, it is a gift to see the gifts 🙂

      Blessings to you…