He Breaks Through {& Counting Gifts}

A call to a deeper place left an unsettling in my heart. Weary just won’t let me rest, so I sought after God, and it was a breakthrough I craved.


Not a breakthrough to get me to a new place, or to find a new blessing to add to my already abundant lot. Not a breakthrough that guarantees my success in my efforts, or one that offers me fleeting happiness as it satisfies a personal appetite.


No. I found it was not even my breakthrough that I needed – it was God’s to be had. The Spirit of the living God breaking-through to a guarded, forbidden place in my soul. A place that had been left forgotten, in darkness, and over time crowded by thickets webbed of insecurity and fear — a wilderness of uncertainty and doubt. Then layered over time with answers that distract and distort, forged by ungodly beliefs that masquerade as truth. In an effort to hide what has been used to hide — decorated with counterfeits of beauty, lovely things that pacify the passerby, so as not to bring attention to what lies beneath.


But none of these things satisfy. None of it can be left undisturbed when a living God with masterful hands, needs to reach the deep places to form and shape a soul.


But obstructions barricading the way in — they aren’t removed easily. God can make a way, not by force, but by the working of His Spirit, deeply and gently within, to bring me low — to a new place of surrender. The work of God, within my heart is not without my consent.

There is a wrestling and a fight, not with God, but with the flesh within – a struggle. Some hinderances need simply to be discarded. Others take effort to be untangled and painfully severed. The stubborn parts requiring much more — a Consuming Fire, until my heart’s cry from the deep place, becomes…


Strip me of it all Lord.

I am dry.

I am thirsty.

I am empty.

Purge me Lord

Cleanse me Lord.

Enter this place.

Have your way in me.

Breakthrough Lord, to the place I have forbidden.

Breakthrough Lord to the place I have hidden.


And then He comes, and BREAKS THROUGH.

Spring forth! Oh, Fountain of God — Fountain of Living Water that never leaves me thirsty.


528. He makes all things new.

529. Isaiah 43:19

530. Bible in 90 Days — anchoring my soul.

531. Worship — ushering the Presence of God.

532. Soul Breather — making all things new.

533. God — who will meet me in the place I’m in.

534. C|Life| Home Church

535. Pastors who know the liberating truth of God’s word and have a gift to communicate it to the Body of Christ.

536. Gramma cooking breakfast.

537. Sly smiles and eyes daring me to come chasing the in-need-of-a-dipaer-change toddler.

538. Abruptly waking to an escaping toddler, chasing blurry eyed, onto the porch and finding myself embrace by the warmth of a beautiful morning sun.

539. Husband who is willing to listen to all my ramblings.

540. Faithfulness of Abba.

541. Him, making a way in and never ceasing from the work of the transformation of my heart.

 

  • http://jerralea.blogspot.com Jerralea

    Thank you so much for sharing! I am thirsty and dry also and am eagerly awaiting Isaiah 43:19 in my life!

    • http://www.alifesurrendered.com Michele-Lyn

      Jerralea,

      Oh, I am praying that for you right now! Blessings to you,

      Michele-Lyn

  • http://shortybearsplace.blogspot.com/ Denise

    I enjoyed this.

    • http://www.alifesurrendered.com Michele-Lyn

      Denise,

      Thank you :)

  • http://www.heavenlyglimpses.blogspot.com/2012/06/when-this-i Theresa@HeavenlyGlimpses

    That dry, parched land…it’s never really in vain, is it? because we realize how very thirsty we are. And we open our eyes in desperation to see He’s doing a new thing! I am hopeful for what He is revealing to you and how he is working through you. He is faithful!

    • http://www.alifesurrendered.com Michele-Lyn

      Theresa,

      God can use all of our hard places, I believe. It’s not just for what we learn, but for what we can pour out to others… He is so faithful! I am so grateful :)

  • http://sixinthehickorysticks.blogspot.com Nacole

    hello, sweet lady! warm wave from MS!! i pray for you today that you have been refreshed during this time of needed filling from Him. i am in need of it too, girl. arent we all? so in need of Him. i cant escape from it. i liked how you said He came through–he never fails. that encourages me and inspires me to talk to Him today in the midst of my trials–a turning back to Him over and over.

    i dont know when we will email or talk again, but until then im loving you through the miles. blessings and love.

    • http://www.alifesurrendered.com Michele-Lyn

      Nacole,

      Thank you for your prayers! I did get a refilling during that last week of rest… now I am praying for a new one!

      Thank you for your words of love, grace and truth. Blessings to you,

      Michele-Lyn

  • Elizabeth, wynnegraceappears

    Thank you for sharing these parts of your journey. You encourage and your words bring Hope with their real and their honest murmurs straight from the heart. Bless you.

    • http://www.alifesurrendered.com Michele-Lyn

      Elizabeth,

      Hi there again! I am sure you got a few emails from bluehost today :) Thank you for your words, all your words that encourage :)

  • http://www.positivelyalene.com/ Positively Alene

    Oh girl – I hop over here to tell you a sweet word that I have missed you so as I’ve been on a media mutiny and at camp with 550 teenagers. And as I read your post and scroll down your list my eyes burst with tears when I get to #529.

    Today would be a good day to visit over coffee and talk of the crazy God is doing in my life. A new thing He already begun. Today I got a glimpse and I freaked out. Oh my that I would have the boldness to step it out and enjoy His goodness and surprises along the way.

    Missed you!

    • http://www.alifesurrendered.com Michele-Lyn

      Alene,

      I am still trying to find time to listen to your podcasts :) I will, I will. I saw that you were already up to #3! I have some catching up to do :) As I did with comments, which is why you are getting this reply a month late. But know that none of your words fall to the ground wasted. You are a blessing to me :)

      With lots of love,

      Michele-Lyn

  • http://truthinweakness.blogspot.com tanya @ truthinweakness

    oh, michele-lyn . . . i found you as my neighbor at shanda’s blog hop, & am i ever glad i DID. that was such a powerful, worship-filled expression of a place i find myself in as well. a journey where the Lord is about to lovingly unearth the “guarded, forbidden places in my soul.” and though my flesh will cry out & resist {as it always does}, i, too, say:
    Breakthrough Lord, to the place I have forbidden.
    Breakthrough Lord, to the place I have forbidden . . .

    thank you so much for this, sweet soul. i love it so much i’m going to share it w/ my TruthInWeakness community on FB.

    rejoicing expectantly for the rivers to come,
    tanya

    • http://www.alifesurrendered.com Michele-Lyn

      Tanya,

      I am sorry for the delay in replying. I fell behind and I am just now getting here. Thank you for your words. They bring me so much encouragement – a month ago when I read them and every now. Thank you for sharing your heart! Thank you for sharing. I am grateful!

      Blessings to you,

      Michele-Lyn

  • http://www.reflectionsofhisgrace.com Joan

    Michele – I’m thankful you had a breakthrough. You were on my heart this past week while taking your blogging break.

    Many blessings,
    Joan

    • http://www.alifesurrendered.com Michele-Lyn

      Joan,

      Thank you for your precious heart! What a blessing :)

  • http://www.shandaoakleyinspires.com Shanda Oakley

    Oh My Goodness! You just linked with my post and you said it so much better than I did. I just wasn’t ready to really share yet. This was beautiful though and I know the feeling of surrendering and then feeling His peace fill us.

    • http://www.alifesurrendered.com Michele-Lyn

      Shanda,

      Thank you for taking the time to stop by my place and comment. I am sorry for the delay in replying. I fell behind in comments, but I like to come back and say how grateful I am for them… Thank you again… your words encourage me!

      Blessings to you,

      Michele-Lyn

  • http://myfreshlybrewedlife.com/ Barbie

    I am so thankful for a God who gently and patiently helps me take down the walls I’ve put up that prevent Him from drawing closer. So thankful for your breakthrough into the deeper places. Walking this journey alongside you my friend.

    • http://www.alifesurrendered.com Michele-Lyn

      Barbie,

      I am still replying to comments here. I am so glad I come back to do it. The comments encourage me all over again :) Thank you for journeying with me. I hope I can hug your neck in real life one day :)

  • http://livedwell.blogspot.com Stacy

    I’ve been struggling through a time in the desert and oh, how I crave the refreshment of the Living Water. I make it to the well and drink but I can’t seem to stay and drink my fill…I keep retreating and watching others from the shadows, longing for what they find, but not able (or perhaps willing) to stay. I am thankful that my God never ceases and never gives up on me and will bring me to the point of breakthrough.

    • http://www.alifesurrendered.com Michele-Lyn

      Stacy,

      Thank you for sharing your story and your heart here. I crave with you, the Living Water. I am grateful with you, also, that even when the job of transformation gets messy, God will never give up on us! What promise we have in Him…

      Blessings to you,

      Michele-Lyn

  • http://deepintoscripture.com Craig

    Michele-Lyn, I haven’t been around in our community at all for about a month. First there was a “wrath of God” quality hail storm which took too much. But the big thing, all I’ve really written about this month, was 170 hours in a row without sleep – that’s 7 days. I’ve had the “sleep thing” for 15 years – but for four days I disappeared from life and slipped into a different world – one of moving walls, and shadows and voices, and nightmarish hallucinations. I’m just now getting my feet planted back in this world. I’m sorry I’ve been gone so long. But having been gone so long leads me to appreciate how important it is for me to be reading everybody whose words I heart. (I haven’t even used THAT word for a month). You know I heart your words – and today is a really good example of why. I can see how God breaks through into your life – like he does mine – like he does all of his children. I’m always in need of a breakthrough – we all are. Stuff gets in the way – doesn’t it? I can read in your words the same story. I have lived out again and again. Familiar. Oh, and of your thank you list – my favorite was the husband who listens to ramblings. Being a rambler myself – I get that – good for him – job well done, job well done. God bless and keep you and each and every one of yours my friend.

    • http://www.alifesurrendered.com Michele-Lyn

      Craig,

      I know a reply to this comment is months overdue — but I get behind sometimes. I am coming back to tell you I appreciate the words you share here. Thank you :)

      I am sad for you about your not being able to sleep. Saying a prayer for you now…

      You are such an encouragement in the midst of your struggles… May God bless you!

  • https://raiseyoureyes.dreamhosters.com/ Connie@raiseyoureyes

    Love Isaiah!

    So wonderful that your toddler has a grandma close by. I also live on the same property as my grandkiddos and love it1

    • http://www.alifesurrendered.com Michele-Lyn

      Connie,

      Yes it is a real blessing to have grandma :) and what a blessing you get to live so close to your grandkids! They will grow up so blessed :)

  • http://www.searchingandgrowing.com Jennifer

    The Holy Spirit is ever the Gentleman. I’m amazed at how quietly and powerfully he speaks to us!

    • http://www.alifesurrendered.com Michele-Lyn

      Jennifer,

      Yes He is so gently and so loving, yet most powerful :)

  • http://simplystriving.wordpress.com/ Nikki

    Welcome back, friend!
    What a lovely time…dwelling with Him. Don’t you love how when we show up, He does, too? Always willing…what love!

    your gift list warmed my heart, friend. thank you for sharing

    (oh, and yes. manning needs to be added to your bookshelf!)

    • http://www.alifesurrendered.com Michele-Lyn

      Nikki,

      Thank you :) You might have gotten a few emails from bluehost tonight :) I have catching up on replies. Thank you for your words here :) I am going on another break next week. I pray for a refreshing!

  • Mom

    I chuckled at the escaping toddler who inevitably ends up stomping her foot on the steps of her gran’s house….and she is of course, ALWAYS welcomed by me, the dog and the turtle….

  • http://faithandsimplicity.com Jacqui

    Beautiful friend! Love hearing your heart!

    • http://www.alifesurrendered.com Michele-Lyn

      Jacqui,

      Thank you :) I am taking another break next week! I am hoping for a special time with God :)

      Blessings to you,

      Michele-Lyn

  • Nissa

    So thankful for your blog,inspiration and honesty.You were missed this last week.

    • http://www.alifesurrendered.com Michele-Lyn

      Nissa,

      Thank you for all your encouragement :) Always…

      I am taking another break next week. I am hoping God will strengthen me :)

  • ro elliott

    AS always…your heart…your heart that longs to let Him have His way…and not by doing…not by performing a task…but the sweet place of surrender…He stands at the door and knocks…we have to open our hearts door to Him…even the ones that have been bolted shut…and thanks be to God…He comes…He enters no matter how dark and ugly the space…and in that space His Love wins our hearts…and we find an abiding place to rest.
    I saw you comment…oh yes practicing the presence of God…wonderful…and I do think you would love mike mason…His heart reminds me of Ann’s. have a blessed day my friend~

    • http://www.alifesurrendered.com Michele-Lyn

      Ro,

      Thank you for your beautiful encouragement. You words bring strength to my soul :)

  • http://www.toshowthemjesus.com Christina

    So thankful He meets us right where we are. No matter how far we’ve wandered, He always finds us. Thanks for sharing what He has done in you this week. It’s always an encouragement to see how He is working in the lives of His children. Blessings to you!

    • http://www.alifesurrendered.com Michele-Lyn

      Christina,

      Thank you, sweet friend :)

  • http://www.redemptionsbeauty.com Shelly Miller

    That verse in Isaiah is one of my favorites. So thankful for breakthrough. For His commitment to make us whole, in His timing. And that chasing after your toddler to be struck by morning sky – just gorgeous. Nice to visit with you Michele-Lyn.

    • http://www.alifesurrendered.com Michele-Lyn

      Shelly,

      Thank you precious, beautiful daughter of God! With love to you,

      Michele-lyn