To my precious readers… For today’s post  I have linked with others at The Gypsy Mama , who prompts writers with a word. Today it is GRIT. Then we have just 5 minutes to let the words flow from our hearts, unedited and unhindered. So here is my 5 minutes worth…

{Another 5 minutes for the picture}

How is it that a WORD can stir deep something inside my soul?

 

I reflect on the day, that still has not ended for me, although the hands on the clock say other wise.

 

I grieve over the the lashing out I made at my daughter because she woke up sleeping baby girl and this homeschooling mama desperately wanted some time alone. Even though I mustered up enough courage to ask her forgiveness, I still wonder, how can I write and share and be someone who loves God with all her heart… if I still yell at my kids???

 

Somehow, somewhere deep inside, there was a seed planted, a long time ago. It lay dormant so long, I thought it would die. I did not know what it looked like or what fruit it was designed to bear.  But, here it has sprouted, and not without struggle and pain and waiting and wanting and wondering. And grows with it still. Is all this necessary?

 

I could write with my mind, all the day long. But to write from my heart, to write from my soul, to write from my spirit given by the Spirit, that requires a different kind of sacrifice. A letting go of things that distract and clutter, and turning away from the things of this world, so that I can hear His Voice, feel His Presence.

 

I am not sure what this blog has to do with the big picture of my life in God, and I wonder.

 

Unequivocally, I know He says, HOLD ON TO IT, NO MATTER HOW HARD IT GETS. RUN WITH IT AND DON’T LOOK BACK!

 

And so I do, not quite knowing what I am doing here, but with GRIT, and courageously  yet afraid, I pay the price of laying heart bare before God and you, so through my pain and my struggle He might Light the Way for someone else.