There is so much I want to write and tell you, and I want to all at once. I know I can’t. So, I am asking God how. How I can prepare these words and posts for you? How can I blog in a way that would help you run your race?

It does no good to tell you of my struggle, unless I also tell you of God’s redemption in it. I cannot waste my time, nor yours, telling you where I am weak, without telling you where Christ is strong.

We are running this race together. If you call yourself a Christ follower then you are running together with every other Christ follower to know Him more for this reason — that others would come to know Him, too.

My writing here in this place must always have the same end in mind — that your eyes, your passion, your devotion, your heart would be turned toward Father God to know Him more because of what you have read here.

I want you free to run your race, so others may also find freedom, especially freedom from fear. Fear doesn’t just steal from you. There are people on the other side of your obedience to God that need what He has put in you to give.

The last 24 hours, counting from the time I am actually typing these words, I’ve been at hotel in a city nearby my home. For my birthday, my husband gave me a night away to spend alone. I dedicated this time to God, seeking hard after Him.

I came needing guidance, and desperately wanting to hear His voice. I came honest and real, especially about my dreams, wanting to know what He’s asking me to fight for and what He’s asking me to surrender. I want to dream His dreams for me and release all my own ambitions.

I only had so much time, but I wanted come away with a renewed sense of purpose and with clearer vision for every area of my life. I needed God to come honest and real. I did my part the best I knew how, and God just needed to show up and do His.

He did.

And I can’t say I don’t have words for what God has revealed, and what has happened in my heart as a result. I do. What I need is wisdom.

Wisdom about what to write and when to write, is what I am praying for. I am also praying what God has done in my life, remains. I don’t ever want to go back the same. I don’t ever want to go back to being held captive by the lies of the enemy.

And as much as God would allow me to have a time and place to write, to speak, to share, I will use it declaring the Truth of God’s word and His love to His people so they, too, can run free no longer tied by the lies that bind.

It’s time.